Time of my life?
I figured it was about time that I'd put some new pictures on this blog. Not that I've been taking many photos lately. My very expensive reflex camera has been resting ever since I've been back from Shepparton. Simply because it's too heavy and because I've had a lot on my mind.
The time has come to arrange some things to be able to go backpacking. For example, I needed a backpack. So I bought one! I got a really broad explanation about the backpack in the store and I've already forgotten half of it, but I'll just figure everything out as I go along. With my brand new backpack on my back I walked into a travel shop, called Global Gossip. That's supposed to be one of the cheapest travel agencies for backpackers. I didn't want to book whole trip, but I did want to book the part at the Ayers Rock, because it would be a bit unwise to do that on my own. So I booked a three day camping trip: seeing the sunset and sunrise at Uluru (Ayers Rock), having a look at the Olgas and walking through the Valley of the Winds in the Kings Canyon. Awesome!
Lately I've mainly been afraid for the traveling, partly because I hadn't arranged anything yet and partly because I have to leave all that I know behind (again). But now that I've got a backpack, booked a trip and started packing stuff to send my suitcase home by ship, I would really like to leave as soon as possible. 'As soon as possible' is going to be in 4 weeks and 2 days. 16 March. The day that I won't be an au pair anymore. I would almost say 'hallelujah'.
Running a household for 5 people and a cat and a dog is not very easy. If anything, it will be a piece of cake to look after just me when I've finished here. I've never been this tired for such a long time. Some people don't understand why I didn't just quit if I didn't really enjoy the job. After all, this was going to be the year in which I was going to have the time of my life right? Yeah, true. But I can also say that, besides feeling like a zombie, I've also never felt better about myself. Maybe this is not the year that I'm having the time of my life. Maybe this is the year in which I'm learning by falling a hundred times and standing up 101 times. A year of showing myself that I do have endurance and that I'm capable of more than I gave myself credit for. And to me that might be even more important than having the time of my life.